You are the Sun...

...and I am the Moon, and we are in this together.

It's been a bit since I last wrote to you. Sorry about that. Normally, I would lie and say that I was busy. In this case, I really was busy, no lie. Promise. Slowly but surely I've been getting my life together. Things are looking up, and while I may not be making the best decisions at the moment, I am doing my best a making a better future for myself. I really wish others would do the same. Sadly, I feel my words fall on deaf ears. I'll continue trying irregardless. It's my duty. Eventually, someone will listen.

I was told I'm in tune. I'm connected to those around me. I'm fairly good at interpreting emotions, facial expressions, body language. Some call it empathy (not to be confused with apathy...or is it the other way around...), but that's not the whole story. I find it easy to interpret those whom I share feelings with. I also understand that there are just some situations where I "just don't understand (sob)", but I do understand. I may not have the same thoughts, but I do know the emotion. Emotions are one of the few things that link all humanity together (though I'm sure this is debatable, as is all things). Love, hate, fear, joy, sadness, and confusion. At one point or another, all humans experience the full gambit. Only natural.

Speaking of this, I wish others were more empathetic to me. I feel like I understand most people I meet, but few, if anyone, understands me. Maybe I just act to guarded. I do have a hard time talking to people, and an even harder time telling even close friends what needs to be said. Not good. No, it's quite bad actually. I don't have all the answers, and this is definitely a perfect example.

Another perfect example of how I don't know everything: I Love Someone. Truly, I do. I've wrestled with the idea of Love, and what exactly it is. I've determined that it is impossible to describe, not because it's complicated, but because it's simple beyond any measure of the word. Love is Joy. You don't seek Joy, it just occurs throughout life. Eventually, you'll come to that one individual that produces that Joy. That is Love....

...I've found mine. The issue being that I don't know how to best express it to this individual. The situation is a perilous one. A chasm I'm tiptoeing through. See you on the other side?

~JD

Captivation...

I spent a decent amount of my time learning several new skills. Skills I thought I needed to tell a story. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm using the right medium for it. Much like in the modding community, you choose an engine based on what you want to accomplish. You don't choose an engine without the ability to have drivable vehicles if you are planing on making a racing game. It just doesn't work, or if it does, it will create a lot of extra, and in my opinion, unnecessary work.

Well, as it turns out, I just wanted to write a story. One that I probably wouldn't normally write. It's come out a bit fantastical. No where near the norm of what I write, or even read for that matter. Well, I guess that doesn't matter much. Worth the trouble? We'll see the ending when we get there.

Soul Surfing...

I'm reaching for something...

I'm not entirely sure what's going to happen in the next few years. I've been gone far too long, and been a bit too lazy as of recent. It's not even that I'm not constantly inspired, but I'm not sure how to deal with the inspiration. It's almost too abundant (okay, that's a lie, you can never have too much inspiration). I am however feeling a bit over loaded as there are lots of ideas that I'd like to pursue, and I'm not the best at organizing and I'm the worst at tackling things one at a time. Going to work on it. Let's see if we can get this done...

Infinite Eights (Part 1)...

"I live in the shadow of a lie, one I try dearly to keep to myself, and fail to. 'Amor' echoes from the mere and falls deaf upon a lone vestige. A spire to your beauty, tall and partially overcome by the vines of your past. You reign supreme. A lone dove in that cage which keeps you from me and protects from the horrors of this world.

Awaken in this sea of sorrow and blood, I thrash in my helplessness, not a soul be saved. Served a hearkened goodbye, you turn and cast your eye upon another. Love's lessened not, and I drown in my woes.

You were beautiful, but you are ugly. I didn't know it then, and I'm still not entirely sure now. You were always so good at covering that up. The bit of blood in every drop of ecstasy that flowed from your mouth. They say that ignorance is bliss. Not so, when you are filled with the doubt that comes with it. You were a vicious vixen, brooding and beautiful. Truly, a poisonous flower; too deadly to touch, too gorgeous not to. I came away with my life, but you have left your scars. No longer will I be the same because of it. I am paralyzed from the love that the bleeding hearts drown in. It is my wound, not my only, and not my last. I guess I can thank you for this. Maybe caution is what I needed, and you have delivered in spades.

This is it. It's the wonderful end. No more love, hate, and broken bodies. I ends on the seams of new twilight. The sun has gone, and now a new light will come to char the world, painting the sky over our heads in crimson twilight. This ethereal event will be just the beginning..."

The Lust

"You were beautiful, but you are ugly. I didn't know it then, and I'm still not entirely sure now. You were always so good at covering that up. The bit of blood in every drop of bliss that flowed from your mouth. They say that ignorance is bliss. Not so, when you are filled with the doubt that comes with it. You were a vicious vixen, brooding and beautiful. Truly, a poisonous flower; too deadly to touch, too gorgeous not to. I came away with my life, but you have left your scars. No longer will I be the same because of it. I am paralyzed from the love that the bleeding hearts drown in. It is my wound, not my only, and not my last. I guess I can thank you for this. Maybe caution is what I needed, and you have delivered in spades."

- J. Davis